gaga explains it all.

I Poke Her Face - KiD CuDi feat. Kanye West, Common, Lady Gaga

So..
I was watching videos on vh1 this morning as I was getting ready for LDOC and
Lady GaGa's poker face came on..
I noticed that they bleeped out the *muffin* in
i'm just bluffin with my muffin...

I'm trying to figure out why the hell they needed to bleep that
no one knows what she is referring to as her muffin.
her butt? her breast? her punani?
there's so much to question that they should have just left it.

Here in her interview she explains it all...



After watching that, we realize.. damn... good thing they bleeped it out..
This b---- is crazy....
But it works!

Check out her performance...
She is definetly on somethin...

asa's at it again.

you guys remember gas shortage?
that ish was hilarious.

if you want it, come and get it. baby, i don't give a fuck.

YO!

Yes, i’m still alive. I would like to say that I haven’t posted mainly because I’ve been busy getting on my hw game..and although that is true to a large degree…that’s not the main reason. And I would also like to say that I haven’t posted because my life has been drama-free and I have nothing to write about...but that is certainly not the case. In fact, I have too much to write about. Friend drama, family drama, boy drama, A PROM?! It seems almost that my life has been in a craze since I got back from spring break..so much so that I can’t control my thoughts and emotions enough to verbalize them in a post. Something might happen that I want to blog about, and by the time I get around to blogging about it, my ideas and emotions have changed towards the subject and my inspiration is gone.

And I would just tell ya’ll whats going on..but last time I used examples from my personal life it blew up in my face and I got an angry “you blogged about me?” text. Lesson learned.

BUT PLEASE, don’t get the wrong idea. I realize that there’s really no excuse. I just felt the need to say a little somethin-somethin about my absence before I go on.

ALRIGHTY THEN.

As May rolls around, the temperature starts to rise, and people start to break out those summer dresses, shorts, and sandals, one can only think…is this school year REALLY over? What the FUCK happened since September. I mean, I know in retrospect everything seems to go by fast, but damn.

And as I look back on this past school year & the summer leading up to the school year (OTE) I’m blinded by all of the changes that have occurred in my relationships && more importantly my friendships. It’s crazy how many friends you can make and become close with in only a year, and how quickly those relationships can die out.

It’s like that child’s song “Make new friends, but keep the old. One is silver, and the other is gold”.

Well..what if they’re all silver? Or what if they were gold..then silver..then bronze? What if the “what are we doing tonight?” turns into the “what are you doing tonight?” which turns into the “how have you been?”?

I know about that all too well as it seems that’s been happening to me left and right. I know it’s natural for friendships to simmer away now and then…but there has to be a limit. I can handle not being able to manage a meaningful relationship at this point in my life…but a meaningful friendship?

But it’s crazy how similar friendships and relationships are in real life. I mean, no, no physical attraction need apply, but some of the simplest things that you would need in a relationship, you NEED in a friendship. Trust? Communication? The same sense of humor? I personally have never literally thought of those qualities when I consider somebody my friend, but now that I look back on it, the majority of friendships-gone-array have had to with one of those. Especially communication.

SO MANY TIMES in the past year I realized that I was the one maintaining the relationship. Now, I don’t mean they like didn’t like me as much as I like them or anything…but the little things. I realized that as soon as I stopped dropping by their room all the time, or texting them “hey”, or “what are you doing tonight”, then our communication as a whole pretty much died out. That shouldn’t happen. I realized that as soon as I stopped going out of my way to see people and I began to chill in my room by myself, then that’s exactly what I’d be doing – chillin in my room by myself. I pretty much set myself up to only chill with people that would hit me up as much as I would hit them up..but just because they were new or different friends, didn’t mean they were better friends. Don’t get me wrong..they weren’t and aren’t worse friends either. I just wish the song was “Make new friends, and keep the old. One is Gold and the other is..Gold” lol..

But yeah, I know I have to wrap this up. It’s like realllllll long, and I highly doubt anybody’s gonna read this whole thing =[

My last thought is this: If I’ve seen this much friendship-drama and narrowing my first year…what’s it gonna be like by senior year?

But anyways, if you’ve actually read this...comment? There’s so much to say on friendships, etc. And I’d like to know that I didn’t just totally procrastinate my final essay for nothing J

PEACEEEEEEE! DON’T CATCH SWINE FLU!

<3 mellow yellow.

musics: i couldn't think of anythin that really had to do with this topic..so i'm jus gonna post song i've been listening to a lot, lol

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LDOC.

I'm done with classes for the day and I was walking back to my dorm on Upper campus, I realized something. Not only am I finished with my academics for the day but tomorrow is the last day of classes.

I'm done.

I survived my first year of college.

Now I'm thinking about how many people I'm going to lose contact with. How many people I know that are seniors.. The people I ran into on the way to my room I will probably never see again. And if I do it will be in passing. Will I miss them? Or will I continue to be preoccupied and take people for granted?

The stundents at the tables in McElroy will never be the same. Freshman are migrating to lower campus now (or College Road) and things are really about to change.

All I know is, I'm ready. I need a change. The end of this year just made me feel more alone at this school. Not finding a group of friends that I truly get along with and that understand me made me realize that I am the only person that is going to worry about me. I was beginning to think I may never find people I like at this school but now I have something to look forward to:

Next year.

HEY!

iight, so i havent been here in a while... i was half way expecting to come to ecp and find that i had been deleted as an author... lol jazzo dont play no games...
but anywhoo... so many things are going on with me i jus thought id share....
as i go thru another relationship...i make sacrifices because i really want this to work... but there are things about this relationship that scare the shit out of me... like, he doesnt like to talk everyday.... he says that we'll end up running out of things to say... thats str8... actually thats more than cool. i jus wait for him to contact me...which i like to do anyways. But what happens wen i wana tell him something exciting or something... must i make a "to tell ***** list"? like wtf? iight i syced it...lol its not like that... but what blows me is that, whenever we do talk he's so fuckin inattentive...like DAMN we barely talk...and when we do, u're somewhere else? what type a....iight but anyways...the scary thing about that is in the subtext of the text, will i be the only one sacrificing in this relationship? then next scary factor in this relationship is the ex...like he felt sooooooo much for her, he really love(d/s) her and im jus afraid that i wont measure up...and its not even just that, I feel like he will never feel for me, like he felt/feels for her... and i know i shouldnt expect that... so im not saying, the exact same feelings, but i jus really want some1 to like me enough to write poems and gushy stuff about me outa the blu...like i guess i jus feel like...he'll never like/love me enough to do those things for me... FUCK! im tired of tryna live up to these ex's... i had to do that shit with my ex and i SWARE i dont wana do it again... its jus something i have to talk to him about i guess... i also constantly find myself coming up with things that i need him to know about me.... like

1. im really sensitive and easily tainted by the littlest shit
2. im the
icky love type...wen i wana be with someone... i wana do all that icky romantic
shit ppl only see on the movies
3. i really try not to be pushy, but
sometimes i am
4. i am willing to make sacrifices, but not by myself...it
takes 2 to tango love
5. wen i fall...i fall hard
6. even tho i am
willing to sacrifice, i am who i am and there isnt but so much i'll sacrifice...
get wit it or get lost
7. i have a REALLY big heart, and i recently heard
that they break easily, please keep this in mind
8. i dont like to be
teased, if u want a relationship with me, dont dangle that shit infrona my face
and snatch it bak wen i bite...im not a pet
9. im not a pet
10. there
were more but i didnt write them down....so lastly, like i said b4...i am who i
am.... fuck wit me

but yeah...i really like this guy... he's the 1st person ive had tanglible feelings for since my ex.. i jus...i dont know... and he's an athlete...and he's hottt! and he has a good head on his shoulders... he's a hot commodity... which makes me think that all the hoes be jockin... lol iight, they're not hoes... but the girls up there that be...well, thirsty...lol



anywhoo... what else is goin on... finals and shit...URGGGGGGG i cant STAND finals... and im getting ready to leave Howard for summer.... its exciting but scary cuz i have so many plans and high hopes...like...i plan to have a new car with in the next two weeks... only problem is...i aint got a JOB! so i gota find one of those first.... anywhoo...im tryna work on this 15 page paper so ill be back to update you n a while.... <3>

so you think you can dance?

who won? i'm thinking the dude in the undies.

what is this?

daydreamer.

"my mind runs.
..i could never catch it even if i got a head start"
-Kid Cudi

Lock in with me right quick.

Have you ever daydreamed so hard that you have a vivid recollection of a moment that has not and may never happen? You can smell the cotton candy at the carnival or feel his hand on your thigh. You know the exact tone your mom would have or hear the exact song that will be playing when you ask him to dance..
I have some serious day dreams y'all.

The smallest thing can trigger my thoughts.



AND BOOM.

There I am creating a probable situation in my mind. Taking it chronologically to future depths I haven't even considered about my own life.
How can I imagine us waking up and getting ready for work? I know the suit you'd wear, I know what I would cook you for breakfast. I even know what our kitchen would look like.
And if I told that chick what I really thought about her outfit I know exactly how it would go down. What she would say in response, what smart alleck comment I'd have to say in respond, and how years later, I'm going to be hanging out with so and so and we still won't like each other.
See, these daydreams are safe. They're creative and they occupy time, but sometimes... I have other thoughts...

"how many of our daydreams would transform into nightmares
were there a chance of their coming true?..."

It's not even on purpose. I don't think I'm demonic or cynical. But I tend to panic.
If I tell someone to call me when they get home so that I know they're safe, and they don't... I start thinking of the exact way the accident went down. Whose fault it was, who the witnesses were. If the other people involved are okay or not.
Or if I call him on his birthday and he doesn't answer and everyone else in the family has tried to call too. And knowing that he has laringitis and lives alone makes me think what if? what if he... Who would know? Who would call the police?
And then I even think of my life without the person, what would I say if I spoke at their funeral? How would school be without them here and knowing that they passed away? Would they really be looking down on me, watching me? Or is heaven just a idea created for mental reassurance?
Would people look at me strange if I didn't cry?



I don't cry at funerals.
But if he passed away people would expect me to.
And all of his students would be crying.
And then they'd look for my tears.
They'd look for my despair and my pain.
But I wouldn't be able to lie to them.

I would be sad, no doubt.
I just believe they may have a closer relationship with him than I did,
and they wouldn't even know it.
Blood does not equal closeness.
I would be sad.
He is an extraordinary man.
But I would also remember that its no thanks to him that I'm here.
And that if he'd had his way...

..I wouldn't be here.

Then, I shake my head and realize that class is over. I can stop daydreaming now.
But my daydreams help me analyze feelings I never knew I had.
Grudges I never knew I'd keep.
Love I never knew I had for another.
and Bitterness that I thought blood overcame..




"SOMETIMES IS DAYDREAM ON PURPOSE, ITS MY ONLY ESCAPE FROM REALITY"

must see.

AND WE'RE BACK.
Well I can't speak for the rest of my writers... but I'M back.
Sorry for the delay. Honestly, there's no excuse... I've just been lazy.
I've had A LOT of ideas for blogs too... I just haven't typed them up.
And you can guess what happened after that...
Yup, I forgot them.
LOL.

Anyway, there are five movies that if you haven't seen... I suggest you do. They aren't in any particular order... But I've seen three out of five and thought they were pretty much amazing. Directors and writers are doing a really good job of 'keepin' it real' nowadays. If you've seen any of these movies, you'd understand.

The first one I just saw yesterday...

Yes, I saw Obsessed. YOU KNOW you want to too... Just to see what its all about right? Well.. I didn't regret it. I've heard some people say they're disappointed or that Beyonce can't act but I didn't think any of the above. Cuz she acted like a true black woman (im not gonna give it away don't worry)...
But do YOU think Beyonce can act?

Next, my boyfriend and his friends saw last week...

Not many people know much about it. Nor is this the typical young adult/teen genre. But its hella good. And I can't wait to see it. Would you pay to see a movie outside of your favorite genre?

Next, I saw a minute ago...

Now this movie epitomizes what I said earlier... Directors and writers are keeping it real! I have never seen a scary movie more realistic.. It's kinda similar to Obsessed in a way cuz it's like... regular people fighting back.. you know?
Do you think the realistic-ness of it takes away the horror? I didn't.

Next, my boyfriend also saw a minute ago...

Personally I love Jim Carey.. Bruce Almighty is my shit. I'm afraid this movie gon be a lot similar to Liar Liar but... prolly still funny.I love when he does serious roles too but I mean we haven't seen him in a while. A lot of people think he's lost his pizazz and shouldn't even make a come back.. What do you think?

Last but def not least...

If you like scary movies you have GOT to see this shit man... I usually LAUGH in scary movies.. Like... Thirteen Ghosts is my favorite scary movie to laugh at.. and like... THIS movie actually had me jumpin... Lke, nighas was walkin' out the theatre cuz they couldn't handle it and shit lol. And just because its like the typical haunted house story doesn't mean it seems fake.... at all. I don't even have a question to ask y'all about this one.. Cuz it was just... BOMB.

To top this all of imma show you somethin else that's... BOMB

please excuse the lack of posts.

when i grow up...

Meet Luam.
She's a choreographer in NY and what not.
She has some really really hot stuff...


That's one of my favorite pieces right there.
Anyway, the point of this whole thing is... she basically is what I want to be when I grow up. Not only is she a choreographer but she has done background dance for like Rihanna and some other people and like look at this pic...
She's literally chillin wit Kanye, Rihanna, and JayZ like it's nothin.
I want that.
I don't even have to be huge. I'm not tryina become a household name or nothin' but.. if I could just work behind the scenes... but the BIG scenes... I'd be content.
sigh....