reggaws.

Ok, ECP... you guys defined SWAGGER as 'the way you carry yourself'...

well i beg to differ.

Cuz not everyone can have swag yet everyone carries themselves in a certain way. Someone can carry themselves in a highly positive way and still be swagless and not all people with swag are good people.

I defined swag as indifference yet awareness of your audience.

You know people are watching you, you're aware that the exist but.. you just don't give a fuck. You don't care what they think. You're gonna do you regardless.

The main component of swag is charisma. This is that outgoing-ness when necessary. A person who isn't afraid to speak up but also knows how to hold it in. Charisma includes smooth talking, and just a pleasantness about the person.

When I think swag I think layed back... but its not true for all cases. I think swag also has to do with maturity and choosin battles.. Or maybe that's the charisma part of it... idk...

Just thought I'd set my thoughts down.

suns gonna rise in a mile

...in a mile you'll be feelin' fiiiinneeee.

oh hey there.

so i know i've been a little MIA...and i know i said i had a bunch of things i wanted to post, but honestly like 3 hours later i forgot them all.

i know, i know - it ain't right.
i need to step my game up.

SO HERE I AM, about to post my first real article in a minnuuttteeeeee. AND, to try out a little something new, i'm actually gonna post about my personal life! usually my stuff has been like general topics [gossip, bagging..chu kno] but i decided that as long as i use nicknames errything should be straight. right? right.

i can feel yalls excitement. i'm flattered.

sooo, im gonna outline three scenarios/guys for yall real quick.

UNO: okay, so BC has this AHANA ball thing every year. this year me and my girls decided not to go - it was too expensive for something that we weren't excited about and didn't have dresses for. plus, a lot of the upper classmen girls are haterrsss, so why pay money and get dressed up to only chill wit my girls? exactly. anyways, so tell me why the week before the ball BOY1 asks me to go. let me outline the history between me and BOY1 real quick:

done. there isn't any! i see him around during dinner ( the occasional times i actually go get food during dinner) and that's it!! we barely say hi to each other when we see each other. it's more like a chore than anything else because every time i see him he's with a white girl. like, every time. we're so NOT friends that he asked me OVER FACEBOOK CHAT. yeah, so i say no brushing it off like..either this is a joke, or he's just really desperate. so i see him the next day when i'm walking with some of my friends and he asked me again...and then i see him the next day and he gets on one knee in front of his own friends (who are all athletes mind you) and asks me again. by this time it's like thursday and the ball is on friday so i actually couldn't find a dress and all that...but i was starting to think that maybe he was interested. but at the same time it's like, he didn't wanna chill or anything to make up for not going to the ball..he did ask me to go to the next major event with him (which is like..next year..hah as if), but he wasn't like really trying to get to know me. it was like do you wanna go to the ball? no? okay, see you around..

mind you, i'm getting teased because this boy is KNOWN for going after white girls. like, he hasn't messed with a black girl at BC...like none.


DOS: arrighht, example one was a lot longer than anticipated so i'm gonna make the next two a little shorter. I've seen him around a lot, second semester more than first, but never actually talked to him. Every time I see him he's sitting and conversing with all white people. So anyways long story short, we eventually meet, and end up messing around one day. Of course, first thing I hear when I elude to the fact that I might start talking to him is: "You know he only messes with white girls". One night when we were talking I brought this up to him (idk why...it was probably a rude thing to do, but i was interested) and his response was something along the lines of he'll go for anything that appeals to him. (Pretty much the male mentality that they'll go for anything that looks good..). But it's like...he knows just about all of the freshmen black girls at BC, and we all look good...like, i don't mind bragging and saying that we have an attractive freshman class..but yeah i'm definitely the first black girl he's tried to talk to...

TRES: mmkay, so the last boy i talked to i met this last boy at a party/get together in his suite. there was not a black person in sight except for his brother, me, and my friend. one or two black/spanish people filtered in and out, but it was a primarily white party. it was still fun as shit, don't get me wrong i had a blast, but dude had invited maad white girls, and spent a lot of his time talking and entertaining them, etc. we actually didn't meet until the end. but anyways, i assume that if you were a boy throwing a party you would invite potential, right? you would invite girls you usually mess with, girls you wanna mess with etc..and they were all white. i was only there because i'm good friends with his brother..


you: so, mellowyellow, whats the point of this?

good question, reader, good question. WELL, i pretty much gave all of that background information to ask you guys a question. Do you think the fact that all of these guys who really only talk to white girls were/are/might have been interested in me is a coincidence? Or do you think i'm plagued with the AGWOTTWG Syndrome (Attracts Guys Who Only Talk To White Girls Syndrome ...c'mon now, keep up)?

Now PLEASE don't think I have anything wrong with white girls. I grew up in a white town, my best friends are white, my roommate is white...they're great. But for some reason I almost feel like..insulted. Like, by the fact that i'm attracting all of these guys who only talk to white girls, does that mean that they view me as like a white girl on the inside?

Yes, I talk proper. I love rock & alternative music. I'm light skinned. I dress preppy ( or used to, it calmed down when i got to BC which is...really strange). But there is so much more to a person than these things...and it's not like you can even know half of them from just looking at me. eye dee kay (i-d-k..c'mon now, keep up).

and at the same time, should i be happy about this? like, yeah i can bag guys who only like black girls AND guys who only like white girls.

arright, so i'm lookin' for general comments on these guys, answers to my questions, declarations of love, or whatever else you feel like posting.

....but you didn't think i was gonna peace without leaving you guys some music, did you?!?


CITIZENS COPE - Sun's Gonna Rise
so i really don't know exactly why i love this song so much...it's just really catchy to me. he remind me of a funkier Gavin Degraw. (this is where the title came from if you didn't catch on to that...or the fact that i do this in all of my posts...) OH, and i couldn't embed the actual video, so heres the song in the back of somebody's screen saver lol.




THE ISLEY BROTHERS - Contagious
so..i definitely just listened to ALL the words for the FIRST time and got upset. i really thought it was like a love song..not one about his girl creeping. wow.

JEREMIH - Birthday Sex
this has just been my shit for the last week...like honestly i listen to it 3 plus times a day..i don't know why. Oh yeah, cause it's amazing.

KAYKAY, so i'm gonna let ya'll go...'til next time that is.

.....stay classy eastcaostpost.

2fur! (As in 2 for 1)

Instead of making 2 blogs, I will just put both subjects in 1 blog

#1- what is wrong with me?
Okay, so right now, i should be studying... but im blogging and watching Angel Eyes...

what is wrong with me...
Its weird, its jus like...pure ignorance. i feel so ignorant right now.
I KNOW im doing poorly in this gov class, and i KNOW i should be studying until i know this stuff like the back of my hand... but instead, im watching TV and looking for things to do... like, thats so dumb... then im guna complain when i fail the test.... i feel so juvinille at this point in time... im jus gun pray on it

#2- Passion (or in this case, lack there if)
Okay, so i miss passion. like the feeling you get when you like somebody, a lot, and they hug you, that really warm feeling, like u never want that hug to end.

I miss that. I dont think Ive experienced that in like 2 years... its really sad actually... I wonder if its me or if its jus not there... maybe i just dont have passion for much of anything anymore... which is really sad because i used to have a lot of passion in me... maybe my muse is on vacation, maybe i jus need a pick me up... or a break... well spring break is coming up so hopefully that will help.

thanks for tuning in...

Check it...

So hard to write... I need something to be written down. My Frustrations with life, leaves me exhausted. Unable to take heed my own wisedom. No one really to even talk to. Like really.

I have shit on my mind. I'd like to talk, but really, I'm not comfortable doing so. And really, if I was, no one would bother to ask. Hmph. Check it.

Check like, you check engine light. Ask wut up.
Somethin slight, something polite. As I do most of ya'll.
Shit, I'm cool, I don't smell, Easy to talk to,
What is it that makes me not considered to be that person you ask shit?
For serious, I'm not trying to be delirious,
You hearing this? I hope you are,
And know who ya are. Shit.
I might sacrifices for ppl, but never get SHIT in return,
idk why mafuckaz wanna go hard, and have soft bottom,
Shit, I'm bout to go hard, and nothing will stop meh.
Man, for realz, Go hard 09?
Fuck you, while I get mine, and KEEP mine. Shit.

The reason I wrote this, like I lot of my life, I've been out to try and help ppl. Make ppl happy. At my own expense. And I get nothing in return except that bitter feeling of regret. I take my experiences, my wisedom, my time, and my love to try and help ppl a lot. And I do end up helping them. I'm happy I could do that. But it seems like, when I have issues, and wanna talk to someone about it, no one is even there. And when they are there, they would just say, oh, that sucks, wow, oh. So I just sought out own my own to find myself help. It make me wanna avoid ppl.

BUT...

At the same time, I look at myself while I go to ppl. Most of the time, I deflect their advice because of my attitude and shit. I sometimes let my emotions rule.

So I'm at a lost. When I'm done, I'm just witdrawn, make bad mistake I have to learn not to do myself. And why am I like this? WHOLE different story. Hmm.

the calm before the storm...

tension.

tension determines whether or not you still care about someone you're fighting with.
tension determines if you have feelings for someone you didn't think you had or that you thought were gone.
tension is that heightened sense you get when they walk into the room.
you may have been reading a magazine, or watching tv, or... knitting for example..
but it's that growth of sudden concentration. you stare at whatever it is you were doing so that they don't think their presence has distracted you.
yet you hear every move they make.
...he went to the sink, now he's pulling out a chair, yep that's the refrigerator
little things that you may not have noticed before stand out now.
and you become enveloped and preoccupied with what they're doing (even though you're staring at the magazine, tv or... wool) and suddenly whatever you doing seems... stupid. or you mess up. or miss the idea completely.
..and as soon as they walk out of the room, there you are reading over that same paragraph, pressing rewind on the dvr, or... unraveling the strands you just crocheted.

[I know this one was on my other blog.. but i just HAD TO re-up cuz... im feelin tension now more than ever]

Love, Sex, and Eating the Bones

Well, First, Let me first begin by apologizing to my fans out here (the one or two of you that actually read this blog) about my absence, but this time I'm back for the real thing. So now the best blogger on this joint will begin his era of greatnest (Yea we beefin it up on here yall, I wanna make things interesting). Relations or Relationships that is the question. So im not doing the the realtionship thing anymore, I figure I'm to young, have too much swagg, and there's to many girls to explore for me to have one and be married. So I have a rotation of like 4 girls that I be messing with and Im tryna get more. Does that make me wrong, i mean I let them all know im not doing the relationship thing, and don't treat them like girlfreinds or even close. If they wanna be dumb shieettt it aint my fault. I love messing lls, sex is pretty damn good to, do I have to give all this up to be "America's good guy". Now, I can be a good guy, like if I'm some girls boyfreind she's a very lucky girl. But I juss can be all that right now. Lets just say if she's giving I'm taking. Does that make me wrong? Does that make me a dogg? Tell me what do yall think?

I can rap about anything..

Let's start with a clip from one of my fav. movies....

"I got a watch, it's a sweotch, and when my mother does my clothes, she uses, Bleotch"

Anyway I've been listening to music intensively lately and there are always a few lines that stick out to me... really really bad lines that should have been changed before the song was even mastered.
Here are a couple throw backs...
[YOU DON'T HAVE TO WACTCH EVERY VID.. ONLY IF YOU DON'T KNOW THE SONG]
We all remember Let Me Hold You by Bow Wow Feat. Omarion...

Now what possessed that boy to say "I just gotta work at it like a crack addict stuck in rehab"....
I don't know about these artists anymore I mean I learned in english class to make similes with the right connotation. Even tho the crack addict in this situation is working on there problem... The fact that they were a crack addict pokes out.. Why Bow?

How about this joint... Lil Flip.. Sunshine

He said: "I'll treat you like milk... I'll do nothing but spoil you"... hmm.... he is comparing is love interest to milk... I wouldn't wanna be compared to milk idk about you guys... And plus... letting milk spoil is a sign of irresponsibility who would want a man like that? lol

Now this joint is on my That Good Good playlist.. Ms.Pretty Pussy by Plies

Now there are PLENTY of lines I could type here... but I chose "nice pink pussy same color as cotton candy, dat pussy smell like water, aint no smell in it"
it smells like water... yet... theres no smell in it? nuff said...

Iigh some new-er joints..
I'm sorry Jamie but I had to do it... Slow is my JAM but...[theres no vid for this song yet so bare with me]

He said "Slowly but surely... I'm bake that body like a cake" it's not only the lyics this time but the WAY he said it... is he referring to heating her up when he uses the verb bake? yeah? ok... hmm

Next Young Jeezy - I Put On

Like.. I love this song it goes hard... I just have a problem with rappers rappin while they hungry... "Passenger's a redbone, her weave look like some curly fries..
Inside fish sticks, outside tartar sauce..Pocket full of celery, imagine what she tellin me..Blowin on asparagus, the realest shit I ever smoked..Ridin to that Trap or Die, the realest shit I ever wrote..They know I got that broccoli, so I keep that glock on me"... And how he gon go from fattenin fried food like curly fries.. to a bunch of vegetables... and we ALL kno his big ass ain't eatin no veggies.. lemme stop lol...

So I'ma leave yall with those five for now... comment with some dumb lines you've heard...

Parental Advisory: Explicit Content

I don't know how many of you have read my poems in the past... but this will be my third explicit one... You can look back and read "In The Moment" and "Temporary Hiatus" they're cool too...


those poems however... were just my attempts at writing sexual poetry... but... i must admit... that this next one is from personal experience... and instead of sitting myself down and telling myself to write [as i did with the last ones].. this one came to me.. in bits and pieces.. and i just had to jot them down before they left me.. so bear with me this prolly wont be the final draft

you stare.
my confidence is at its peak when i know your eyes are on me
my inner thighs dilate in sync with your pupils
you lean in.
holding me so close that the graze of your eyelash whispers in my ear when you blink
i can't help but take my bottom lip from your shoulder to your collar bone and back again
just in time to look in to your eyes
we connect
at that moment there is the least bit of hesitation within me
and with the separation of my legs... i open myself to you... for you...
familiar.
yet i inhale deeply with surprise when your head meets my lips
and inside you explore what feels like new territory every single time
we levitate.
i open my eyes finding myself in a higher state
impairing my vision,
our reflection is a blur
you lift me.
i clench your back anxiously to assure myself it's real
i can smell you, touch you, taste you
on me, near me, ....in me
perfection was never in my reach til now
tangible til i relieve my grasp
i let go.
release previous postponed passions
and pull away to rest.

i open my eyes to you above me
smiling, smoothing back my hair
those eyes almost send me away again, so..
i leave.
yet our heartbeat throbs between my thighs.
haunting me..
distracting me...
luring me in to the next encounter.

so i need a title... and feedback..

back.

11.5 songs I hate to love

Okay, so I think that some of these songs are a str8up shame...but for some reason I jus cant help but "jam" when they come on...

11. this would be further down in the list if i wasnt coming bak to edit this bcuz i jus remember the song 2 seconds after i published the blog...

I love this song soooo much! lol I get so excited when it comes on... in the cafe, in the club, etc... i think it can be inferred why i hate to love this song...lol

10. Jamie Foxx ft T-Pain- Blame it on the Alcohol

So, i absolutly LOVE this song... and i only hate to sing along to it bcuz i dont drink...what so ever... so i cant blame it on anything but myself... wait... i DONT hate that I dont drink... lol im proud of that, i feel like y am i jamin to this song about gettin drunk wen i cant even relate.. but hey, a club banga is a club banga... lol

9. Busta Rhymes ft Ron Brownz- Arab Money

I like this song too... but my friend was like...its so ignorant cuz they aint sayin nuthin... tho im not sure if that is true, it would be very iggy if they were jus makin noise/makin fun of Arab people...but Busta says "Sing the hook in Arabic"... so maybe they are actually sayin somethin... but I PERSONALLY dont know arabic, so i hate to love it cuz i sit there and make noises and become a lil iggy... mmm.

8. Ron Brownz ft Q da Kid- Jumpin (Out tha window)

I mean, its not the best concept for a song... but i like it...

7. Jeremih- Birthday Sex

I hate to like this song bcuz i had to confirm my age on youtube to view it... nah really, i jus hate to like it cuz its a lil dirty... lol but what song isnt these days. At this point in time im more upset at this video than the actual song...

6. Soulja Boy- Turn my swag on

I jus hate to like soulja boy period...i feel like his songs means absolutely nothing... but anywhoo... this video is A TRIP!

5.5- Gucci ft some other artists- Bricks

Its about cocaine...y should i like it? i dont understand... my roomate knows ALL the words... she loves Gucci... i dont understand that either...(i love u Kristy)

5. Rico Dolla- Whats my favorite word

....Bi*** jus isnt a good word, i dont like it, but when im in the club and it comes on, i dance, and if im in that mood, i may even yell it with the rest of the bitties

4. Waxamillion- No panties on the dancefloor
*sorry about the quality of the video

I love this song so much!!!! But it gives off such a bad message when im singin along like its the gospel... Plus, its jus so dang on funny!!!!!

3. Riskay- Smell yo dick

I jus cant stop singin it... i dont understand... anyway, its jus such a mess, but they're so serious...

2. Nelly- Tip Drill

...i dance everytime, but this song is so disresectful, and then ur friends wana play around and point at u wen they say "Now if you see a tip drill, point her out (where she at)", its iight tho, i point right back... but its funny wen we see a girl we dont know dancin trife and we all point at her (unplanned) i get a good laugh at that...

DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!

1. OJ da Juice Man ft...our boy, Gucci- aaay

Aaight so here's the deal, when I heard it on the radio, it was edited. So it only said "Quarter..., halfa...., whole...., aaay" not "Quarter brick. halfa brick, whole brick, aay" so i thought it was saying "Whore, heffa, hoe, aaay" so up until JUS now, wen my roomate (who knows all the words to this song too), explained it to me. But its stil about coke... so hhhahahaha

Honorable mention:
Samwell- what what in the butt
T-Baby- Cold in the D
Gucci- Gucci bandanna
and some others that i didnt write down bcuz i thought id remember them... i shouldve known... i had some good ones too... dang it!

Honesty really IS the best policy

Okay,
So when we were young, our parents always told us little values and morals to live by. You know... treat others as you want to be treated, clean up behind yourself, wipe your feet at the door, no elbows on the table, don’t talk with your mouth full, and the list could go on forever. I always tried my hardest to follow these rules of life, but i always had trouble with what may have been the most important one,
"HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY"
yeah, it was tough, and I was good. From a young age I would tell little white lies, no big deal (so I thought), but these white lies turned in to real lies and so on and so fourth...
from the age of like 7 until I was about 16...I used to lie my ass off! I wasn’t like, a habitual liar. I lied for good reasons, well there’s never a good enough reason to lie, but then, the reasons seemed good. And, the only person I really lied to on a regular basis was my mom. She was the only person i really NEEDED to lie to. But then I had an epiphany,
"Perhaps, if I don’t do things I KNOW I'm not supposed to do, I won’t have to lie about them"
I believe that it was a part of growing up. As I matured, I realized that I should tell the truth at all cost.
I mean, don’t get me wrong, to be honest, I still lie every now and then, but maybe like once or twice a week. But anywhoo, on to the point of the blog...
This morning I had another epiphany, I thought about how, as I matured, yes, I did learn the value of the truth and yes, I changed in a big way. However, it wasn’t until recently, like with in the past 2 weeks, that I REALLY realized that I shouldn’t lie.
Why you ask?
Because it doesn’t feel good to be lied to or to have information with held from you. It especially doesn’t feel good to be ignored or lead on, which isn’t necessarily a lie, but it falls under not telling the truth. I really just don’t understand why people don’t just tell the truth, I mean I understand it, but I wont condone it, nor will I advise it.
I am 18. I have endured, and resisted, peer pressure. I have graduated from high school. I have been in love. I have gotten my ass whopped on a many occasion when I was younger. I made it thru my 1st semester with 17 credits and a 3.81 gpa. I could still get my ass whopped, if I make the wrong move. I can buy cigarettes. I can go to the club. I can vote. I can claim myself as independent. I can get my full license (which I have).
All these things that I have done and can do, what makes you think that I can’t handle the truth? I simply don’t understand it. I really don’t like liars...and I absolutely despise being lied to. Anywhoo... I jus needed to vent a little bit. Thanks for reading.
Here's a song from pretty much my fav band... Evanescence, its called missing. It doesnt directly connect with the blog, but its pretty much how i feel right now.

why they DON'T work

WHY ARE A LOT OF RELATIONSHIPS FAILURES??

... and by failure, i mean that the "original title" given to the said relationship does not workout.

For me, I think that there are four reasons why relationships (including friendship, romantic relationships, and relative-ships) don't work out

disclaimer:: for the sake of not have much confusion.. the examples will be in the sense of a romantic relationship

EXPECTATIONS -- a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future

WORK -- activity involving mental or physical effort done in order to achieve a purpose or result

TRUST -- firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something

COMMUNICATION -- the successful conveying or sharing of ideas and feelings

expectations::

People often go into relationships with a lot of expectations. I mean it would be stupid and naive to not have any expectations, because then you would have absolutely no standards and that's just NAHT smart. BUTT (and yes I did spell it with two t's). It is even more stupid and more naive to think the each and every one of the expectation that you hold your partner to will be fulfilled to your degree.

The first mistake that is made with expectations is that people often made too many, and unreasonable expectations for the significant other to fulfill. For example:: say a really rich girl got with a guy who grew up in the projects taking care of his family because his daddy wasn't around. Now the girl goes into the relationship with the ideals of a man who is upscale, high-class, waits on her hand and foot, likes to spend money in order to have fun. For the girl to think the the guy could fulfill ALL of these expectations is absurd.

The second mistake that people make is not only do people go into relationship with ridiculous amount of expectations, but they actually think that allllllll the expectations will be satisfied. Its like getting a cat and then one day asking it to bark. Is it gonna happen?... NEGATIVE

work::

it is crazy the amount of work put in when two people are courting or even just trying to get each other's attention. I guy will go to great lengths in order to "bag" a girl. And a girl will call in all her "man-terpretation powers" in order to get a guy. BUT WHY when the two finally get together does this crazy work ethic they BOTH had go out the window... for BOTH of them.. It is like as soon as the relationship begins people think that the work is over.. WRONG.. this is were people fail.. and where relationships do to... you must work to keep a relationship going. You can't bail at the first sight of trouble...

trust::

this should be a NO BRAINER.. but apparently it's not... for a relationship to work both parties must trust each other fully. that's it.. You have to be able to trust you partner with you body, your feelings, your secrets, your credit card, you hear, your mind, you EVERYTHING. I can write a novel on how important trust is... but I won't. But I feel like the most successful relationship have come about becuase both people trusted each other... and if it was not full trust, then it was the same level and understanding of trust. Ne-Yo says "I believe that love and trust are one in the same. I don't think you can truly love somebody unless you trust them. That blind trust, that beyond a shadow of a doubt, no matter what this person sayin', that person sayin', you believe your man"

commincation::

again, I feel as though this should be a no brainer but it has found it's way on my list... You gotta talk. You have to let the other person know how you feel, what you want, what you need. Tell them everything, as they should to you. Not only talk about emotions and such, but talk about the Red Sox or Obama or something... Conversation builds friendship. Friendship should be the base of the relationship. You have to know the person your in a relationship with. Communication is the grounds for all the other things like expectations, work, and trust. If the communication is set in a relationship then it is soo much easier for both people to understand the EXPECTATIONS of each other, to realize what the other person wants and what WORK needs to be done to achieve that. And when two people talk about.. everything.. then trust is naturally established amongst them, and can be nurtured into the trust needed for a healthy successful relationship.

that's all folks

peaceee

P.S... sometimes relationships don't work because we're scared...

quotee : "So scared of the heartbreak. So scared of makin' mistakes. I keep runnin', when all I really need is you" - Jesse McCartney

make me give you some sex educationnn

so pretty much i found this on some random message board and thought it was pretty funny and truthful. and i think the reason that booty calls so often turn into "we're hooking up but i think it's more.." type of deals is because people don't follow these rules. soooo... here they are, do with them as you will =]

ps. i have a lot of new articles/ random shit brewing in my head, so get psyched cause big things will be coming soon ;) (maybe even like..later tonight)

Rules of the Booty Call

Thou shalt not have intense eye contact during the act.
Thou shalt not call the other by a nickname. (ie: Baby, Baby girl, etc.)
Thou shalt not cuddle and want to talk to the entire night.
Thou shalt not kiss the other goodbye passionately in the morning.
Thou shalt only sleep over if it's really late.
Thou shalt not discuss the next encounter.
Thou shalt not question how many partners the other has/has had.
Thou shalt not engage in caressing/massaging AFTER the act.
Thou shalt engage in sexual acts no later than 20 minutes after the other person arrives.
Thou shalt not kiss the other's forehead and wish them a good night.
Thou shalt not take a romantic bath/shower together afterwards.
Thou shalt not spend the remainder of the night giggling and acting silly.

Thou shalt have a mutual understanding of the Booty Call and abide by all of its rules. If not, thou shalt be obliged to move on and find another Booty to call.



and as i always do, i'm gonna leave you with a related song:

FUCK U GRL - DJz JENNiiFER

it's so straight forward. i wanna hold you and fuck you giiirlllllll =]

LYIN ASS MOTHA FUKA

iight. so jasmin sayd she wants graphics so ill find a picture that relates to my situation...iight well so much for that... heres jus how i feel right now

Y do i feel this way you ask...let me tell u why, because people lie...for no reason, and then wen they get caught in their lie, they continue to dig themselvs deeper and deeper in that hole that is dishonesty. It doesnt matter if I have tried my hardest to never lie to him thru out our relationship... iight so my problem is, i dont really know if he's lying, so i need yalls help.

So last night I went thru some tuff shiz... i was really thrown by the situation as a whole...

Background:

so me and my ex were texting las night...as we do every Tuesday
in the meantime...like truought the convorsation, he would say stuff about how he doesnt wana talk about relationships...cuz he misunderstood somethin i said, so he talkin about he doesnt feel like we should talk about ne thing havin to deal with a relationship...so im likke iight w/e
but also in the meantime, i told him that one of our friends told told me something that almost made me cringe...like those were my exact words... i guess he assumed it had something to do with him talkin to someone...so he got like really defensive...
so he was saying stuff like...i shouldnt listen to rumors and ppl say w/e they wana say but dont believe it...jus stuff that made it sound like there was reson for ppl to be tellin rumors about him…1) what does that sound like to yall?

oh okay...me too

Iight…so then I let it go… jus cuz I was jus like w/e about it by then. So we continued our convo and then it was like 1 somethin so we were both kinda tired…so he says “im tired so ill tty next week. Its my turn. Goodnight and good luck” cuz I was tellin him how much I was struggllin with an essay I was writing…So I said. “Okay, goodnight. And thank you.”

The situation:

Two minits later, I get a text saying “Baybee im fallin asleep, so I’ll ttyl, ok? Dnt b mad”…

2) wat do u think jus happened?
Well for sure we’ve been broken up for over a month and he’s not the baybee…type so I was def like “u def sent that to the wrong person” and he was like “Lmao, I tol u im fallin asleep. It was a part of a draft I was gunna send u earlier, my bad”
He’s quick on his feet eh?
Yeah…no…maybe…idk either… but this isn’t the half of it
So then I was like…"that doesn’t even make sense, y would u be callin me baby, wen that’s not the case? I think ur lyin but its w/e I don’t even care."
Then he was like “Y wud I lie about dat, especially afta wat we jus literally talked about. And I meant to say bailli, I jus txt the wrong thing”
And the lies jus get deeper and deeper…
So I was like, “that’s bull shit. Don’t even bother with anymore lies. And its not even a good lie. Ill see u around {insert name here}. Much luck to ur new baybee and urself”

from here on out ima jus type the convo. im purple...he's red...my commentary is in blue

-Wtf, think wat u wana think, I thought u might get a kick out of me spellin ur name like baylee but I guess not (dam right…not!). as a matter of fact, I think it’ll be btr if u think I had another baybee, hopefully that’ll motivate u to start dating again or weneva ur ready. Well, the liar is off, bye

-W/e…it just doesn’t make sense man, none of it does. Bye

-U have lied so much n da past that u cant even see wen some1 is tellin the truth, but like u said, w/e bye
have i really? this mofo is crazy, i did my best not to lie to him, i never had a reason to, so i asked

-wen did I lie to you? And don’t even start with the personal attacks

-Im not sayin u’ve lied to me im jus sayin period. I don’t feel bad about sendin u the msg cuz they had a few errors in them, so wat. Im tired of feeln u don’t believe me, so jus believe im lyin . Mayb u’ll feel btr. Y am I feeln and txtn u like I gota prove sumnthn to u, so im not. Think watchu wana, suspect me of w/e jus like u always have. Maybe ull feel better about everything
o, okay then

-don’t try and turn ur shit around on me ive never suspected u of lying about something serious, if anything I was too naïve. Idk about that txt. A lot of it jus doesn’t make sense, and all the stuff we talked about tonight, and how u didn’t wana talk about new relationships, it all adds up. Idk wat to think but don’t come at me like that

so im like, maybe this dummy doesnt know what he sent me... let me enlighten him
-fwd: Baybee im fallin asleep, so ill ttyl, ok? Dnt b mad… that’s the message u sent me. Y would I be mad that ur goin to sleep? And u always say ull talk to me next week, jus like u did tonight. And things don’t jus send themselves out of a drafts box. Things jus aint addin up son

-It was saved as a draft on the bottom of my screen where the send button Is, I thought u might be a lil mad bcuz I aint text u first and we aint get alota time to talk I thought u might b upset, my fault for being so considerate, I wont be next time since its such a problem. If u don’t wana believe me, don’t, im not guna plead for ur trust

-U don’t need to plead for my trust anymore. I guess it doesn’t matter whether I trust u or not. I jus don’t know what to think, but appearantly u don’t care so ill stop tellin u that

-I do care and ino u don’t know what to think, but idk wat else to say to dat. Ive told u all that I can right now, da rest u gota think for urself

-k

There was mos def more to that convorsation, but im not bouta put the whole convo up here... anywhoo... what do yall think?

I've gotten the opinions of a few others but i need both male and female perspectives.

My Predicament:

there are soooo many things goinbg on in my head right now,

1)who the fuck is he callin baby so soon? This is the guy who took a year and a half to get over his ex gf of 2months...but we were together for 2 years and ur thru in a month... wtf ever

2)He's soooooo lying wtf is wrong with him...ur caught nigga! fess the fuck up!

3)how long has he been talkin to dis gurl cuz it took him (as i look at my watchless wrist) too dam long to even think to call me baby

4)do i know her? did she know about us?

5)damn womans intuition is thicke!

6)i kno i shouldnt be feelin like this cuz thats not me anymore...but its not that im mad about the girl...as much as im mad at him lying about it

7)im also mad at that lie, it was horrible

8)but is it a lie?

9)what does he take me for? an idiot? i clearly wasnt born this morning...

10)the list goes on and in and on

iight let me know what yall think, i know its long but...yeah my bad