Hydroxycut, slim fast, nutrasystem, jenny craig, Crevax, Weight watchers, ando many others... I have been watching a lot of tv lately and i've noticed that I see sooooooooooo many weight loss product commercials. Dont get me wrong, I know that obesity is fatal and a big problem in our society. Along with these commercials we have these TV shows like "diettrribe", "celebrity fit club", and others. But being EXTRA EXTRA skinny is unhealthy and fatal too. Even with that being said... I dont see any "Get your weight up" commercials, or any TV shows getting extra skinny people to GAIN wieght. I mean there are all these stigma's about how hard it is for "big girls" to make it in the "industry" but they do! And when that happens, all you hear is criticism! Nicole Richie has been a twig every since she meet Paris Hilton, and yeah they spectators comment on it, but young girls still aspire to be like her... which to me, jus shows how rediculous our society is. IDK tho, its jus a lil aggrivating to me. Like why do ppl aspire to be skinny? Why not jus aspire to be healthy? I know Id rather be healthy than stick thin! But what do you think?
Hmm... When I first heard this song i frowned in confusion. I always thought a hustler was someone that like... did what they had to do to make money and worked real hard for it.. and i also thought a diva was someone who thought highly of themselves, was dramatic, and liked things handed to them... according to beyonce im wrong. me and some friends were discussing this 'definition of a diva' and we decided that maybe a prostitute [along with other types of females] would be more of a definition of a hustler... like a prostitute does what she gotta do [..just happens that its with her body] to make money.. u kno? i'm sure there's a better definition but that was of the top of the dome... but then my other friend brought up that.. beyonce could be trying to re-define the word diva.. since shes been called diva so much in the past.. i mean it's true i wouldnt want to be known as someone dramtic, liked things handed to her, and thinks highly of herself... or self proclaim it atleast.. so i wanna know what you think.. is beyonce redefining Diva... or does she legit think diva and hustler are synonyms??
Intermission:
So lemme take this moment and apologize for slippin up on my blog game... my wireless wasn't working at my humble abode and as most of you know.. i am on winter break in the lovely montgomery county maryland.. i have so much to update you all on.. but ima take it slow lol... heres a lil sommin sommin i wrote a few days ago when i was excited about going clubbin' for the first time [yes, yes y'all your girl was a virgin] ...and we're back
I'm thirsty.. ya girl is on the hunt, I step in with my grace throwing breeze through my bangs.... you turn around and whisper to your boy, and although I can't hear what ur saying... the skin above ur brow must be transparent, I can see through to your thoughts... the adhesive of my swag must be double sided, you stay on my back and my front... our dancing acquaints us to eachother, you observe by clenching my waist... we connect with every 808, the music providing a slower paste... you're imagining your hands gliding my straps off my shoulder, your fingertips removing my belt... your tongue gliding across my collar bone, you imagine ur chest being felt... I can see it, I can see it I can see it, I can see it, right through the glass replacing ur skull... I'm decideing whether I'm ashamed of myself, for not minding your thoughts at all... I wonder if you're a mind reader to, if you can tell where I'd rather be... smuthered in your skin and sheets, with you hovering on top of me...
im not too proud of this one.. you know what i need already... is it complete and a title?
Hello My ECP Family! I would like to wish you ALL a very Merry Christmas! And A Happy New Year! I hope your Christmas' are jolly and joyus, as this holiday should be! And I hope everyone gets eveything they need!
so, for my FIRST OFFICIAL BLOG ARTICLE EVERRRR i chose a topic that most recently has become a pretty interesting part of my life. ...and although i was like 199.99% sure i was gonna use this time to spit some man-hating words, i have chosen to use this time to talk about (dun dun dunnnnn)
GOSSIP.
Dictionary definition: idle talk or rumor, esp. about the personal or private affairs of others: the endless gossip about Hollywood stars.
..i personally think that's pretty true, except i would add in the fact that they're gossiping about people THEY DON'T REALLY KNOW. you wouldn't be wondering what so-and-so was doing with so-and-so last friday if you were actually friends with them because they would have told you.
when i think of gossip, i think of high school. i think of catty girls making up stories and talking about eachother having scandalous rendevous. i think of reputation-ruining-rumors and clique wars. pretty much, i think of the movie mean girls. did i gossip when i was in high school? hell to the mother fucking yeahhhh i did. freshman and sophomore year thats just about all i did. trash talking because a skill of mine. i could tear apart a girls outfit (verbally...pervs) to my best friend in seconds. did i ever make up a rumor about somebody? no, i never went thaaaat far, but i might as well have. and then junior year came, i was bogged with school work, thought i was too cool for school, and actually got a life.
..so, if i got over it junior year in high school... tell me why now, in college, gossipping & trash-talking is everywhere. and most of it's not even freshman. UPPER CLASSMAN bitties are in on this shit too.
At first I thought people gossipped about others just because they were bored. I honestly did. Their lives weren't interesting enough, so they look to others for a sense of entertainment. I mean, that's what happens with celebrities right? Bored? Buy a magazine and see what crazy shit Britney Spears got herself into this week. Done with your homework early? Turn on the E! channel and see what the stars wore on the red carpets...i personally dont find any entertainment in it, but obviously millions of people do because they is a huge fucking industry for it.
But, we're in college. We're never that bored (unless we are at home snowed in...like i am now). There's always some homework that we're putting off, some alcohol that we could be drinking, or some athlete that we could be sleeping with and then getting lied to by. So, if gossip is not a time filler, why do it? I'm sorry children, but i really don't have an answer. So, hmm, maybe this blog is pointless..but i have some examples from my own experiences thus far that might clue you in to my curiosity about the topic.
EXAMPLE ONE: "you've had a reputation of being a ho around lower for the last month."
interesting how this was said about a week after my one month anniversary with my boyfriend, hmm? mind you, this was told to me by a girl a class above me who i really don't know that well. we were at a party, and she took time out of her night to "help me out" and tell me that unspecified people believe that i've been getting it in with mad dudes. had i been in a straight mind set, i would have bitched her ass out, telling her that i've been talking with the same guy for the last four months or so, and even if i WAS getting it in with mad dudes it was none of her damn business. i honestly didn't even know her full name til about a week after. now, i can't really blame her for this as much as the people who apparently had been talking shit ... but common now. how sad must your life be if your making up shit about a sweet, wide-eyed, innocent freshman like myself? ...exactly.
EXAMPLE TWO:
him: "i heard you really be gettin' in poppin' up here" (said really suggestively)
me: "heh...i guess..what do you mean?" (awkwardly)
him: "i heard from sources that they saw you walking with two athletes"
me: "so..."
yup. this conversation actually happened. one of my good friends heard rumors that i was apparently messing with 2 football players (at the same time..like..really though?) and tried to give that fact that they saw me WALKING with them as evidence. mind you, this occured at the very,very,very beginning of the school year when i just moved in and the only other people on the fucking campus were the athletes...and the worst part about this was that people will actuallyBELIEVE IT! they don't know the first thing about me, so they assume "oh hey, a girl is walking with two athletes. she must be getting trained on."...like wat-da-fuck.
Alright, I'm gonna start bringing this baby to a close.
This is my FAVORITE SONG right now (well..one of the many) & it just happens to be called Gossip (lol). Lil Wayne goes SOO HARD on this song... every other line i just cant help but smile. if your one of those people who really just bumps to the beat and doesnt really listen to the lyrics, i would highly reccomend you change that for this song =]
Aiiight ladies n gents, time to get my first official post in here...
so i'm finally done with finals. happy as hell about that. Break has begun and i'll post a lil more often now...oh yeah shout outs to Stacey aka S.Dot aka The Rock's Finest lmfao
so as i was studying, i was throwing on some older tracks I was jammin to freshman year and came across Mr. J. Medeiros.
So, for those who ain't familiar with dude, he was part of the group, The Procussions, who've dropped 3 albums, one of which is pretty dope, called 5 Sparrows for Two Cents in 2006.
So in '07 J decided drop a solo joint called Of Gods and Girlswhich was freakin crazy in my eyes. That album is sooo ill! and those beats are fire! There's a lil jazzy feel to it, like Constance which is the true story about a 13 year old Filipino girl who's a victim to human trafficking and rape...serious ass story there. but some joints, like Keep Pace just go hard as hell in regards to the beat. He's what most hip hop heads would prolly call a backpacker and a conscious cat.
He sounds like Zack De La Rocha of the infamous rock group Rage Against the Machine... and matter fact, the first time i heard his voice, I actually thought my boy Zack was back in the game and rappin. I was wrong. but I was pleasantly surprised to hear Medeiros' music. Shit was like a breath of fresh air. Still is, too. This albums definitely back in my rotation.
Here are two of his videos, coincidentally, for Keep Pace and Constance...
Keep Pace
Constance
I'm big on conscious rap. I'ma post a lot of shit tho. everything. If you wanna hear some more of his shit, hit me up...
whatever it is you chose to call them... is all the same...
SO... what exactly did I learn about these.. specimen... haha
I think that the first and most important thing that I learned.. and am still trying to accept is thatthey are all different
during this first semester I have come into close encounter/relationship (not nessesarily boyfriends.. friends and acquaintances too) with five guys that I honestly say helped shaped(good/bad) my first semester of college.
They are all different... yea females will say "NO THEY"RE NOT!" and many guys will say "THANK YOU!".... don't speak so quickly..
different is good.. in proportions...
I used to think that every guys had this one thought, and one thought only...SEX
I met these five guys and from my time with them I can conclude that that's not really ALL they want.. i'm not saying that they don't want it... but that's not the only thing they think about..
but i do know that guys are highly influenced by their drive for sex.. it can make them say things and do things that make them out to be jerk, players, assholes, etc... And it's this drive for sex that primarily has females hating males.. actually no i lied... its the males REACTION to this drive for sex that has many females hating males..
their reaction. their response... thats where the difference comes into play...
some.. actually, many guys chose to act primarily on this drive for sex. they want it. they need it. so they're going to do everything in their power to get.. right? and by everything in their "power" i mean, like they're gonna sweet talk, tell you your the shit, and that they ain't never met a girl like you... sound familiar? hahah :-)
<"he gotSEX on the brain>
other guys are a little different.. they still want sex.. but it's not always on the brain... i guess/think? they still flirt. they wonder how it would be to have sex with you. they still ponder on the fact that could pursue you... but they don't.. they have a little more control.. this kinda guy, he cool to chill with... sometimes... other times, he makes those awkward sexual comments, touches you, and jokes around about sex with you... this is signal that the sex drive is in overload, and it's time for you two to go your separate way... that is unless you want to take it for a test drive hahaha :-)
<"you ain't even really gotta be my girlfriend... we can hook up, hang out, just chill">
the last guy comes few and far between. I mean.. like i feel like each and every guy has the potential to be one of these guys, but they chose which one they want to be. And few guys chose to be this guy particular guy.. lol. this guy is the "bestfriend"... he does not technically have to be your bestfriend, but HEYif he wanted to.. he could. Like you get none of those sexual innuendos, and if he ever wanted to have sex with you, he keeps it so under wraps that it's ridiculous. he's just madd chill and madd cool. you guys can talk about anything and everything.. i mean i think ever female should have one these.. stop taking guy advice from ur girls when you can get it from an actually guy.. right? am i wrong? i feel like everything would be less complicated.. you would understand men more and thus he would understand females more.. iono.. i've been told that it's not possible for a girl and a guy to be just friends... i'm thinking that ima prove that "fact" wrong..
Okay so sometimes I have these random thoughts that i turn into theories/philosophies... This morning I was thinking about why people say that "Tittles ruin everything" and why they actually do... This is what I came up with:
When people are in the "wooing" stages they are actually trying to impress, sustain, and basically "win" the other person over. When people tittle their relationship... it gives one (or both) of the partners the idea that they dont have to try anymore because they have "won" that person over already.
Which brings me to another philosophy...
If people would only keep trying after the tittling of the relationship, I think a lot of relationships would stay together longer. I feel as though, if people would try as hard to KEEP one another, as they did to GET one another, maybe so many divorces wouldnt happen. Maybe even more marriages would happen...
I dont know, what do you guys think?
Quote; "Dont cry because its over, smile because it happened" -unknown
When I was still in high school I had a best friend that was on her way into college. We were like twins. Like inseparable... My biggest fear was that she would go far away, and we would not be able to chill and hang out as much. When she decided to go to a local college we were both souped. all "woo whoo we can be friends forever." I thought the least of my fears was over. Little did I know that after that september things would change forever... it was weird.. we'd hang out and chill but she was a different person. And sooner than later, we drifted apart.
College is hard. It is even more difficult to maintain a good sense of identity while in college. Being in college challenges everything about who you are/claim to be. It's because you're so far from your comfort zone. You're so far from the place that you had identified your self by for so long. The people who surrounded you for four year or all your life were not in arm's reach anymore. Everything is different. No direct discipline. No Parents. No curfew. No one telling you to do this or that. And in place of everything lost, you receive dramaand responsibility.
BUT this change does not have to be for the worst... It is true, everyone has their down times. When they no longer feel like themselves. But i feel like that is all in the process of growing and gaining a NEW self-identity. It's impossible to stay the same person you were freshman year of high school. And if you did stay the same, that just means you remained un-flourished... and you didn't grow. I believe that this growth is important for the continuation of life in the real world
I think that it is important to maintain the "good parts" of you and add upon them. Because in college those "good parts" are questioned and put down... And when you submit to the "ways" of college, and you change your self for (i guess) "acceptance" Your stuck lost in you own identity.. trying to figure out who exactly you are and want to be.. You spend everyday pretending to be "Jenn the College Student".. You just have to go through these experiences and learn from them and become the best person that YOU can be... and you do this all for you, don't be the person that you're bestfriend or boyfriend or ANYONE wants you to be.. you have to be content with yourself first and from there i think all else will come naturally
NEWHOOOOOO i really love this song, and when i was writing this song was in my head the whole time... enjoy :-)
peaceee :-)
quoteeeee: "Look at me. You may think that you know who I really am, but you'll never know me. Everyday it's as if I play a part..."-Christina Aguilera "Reflections"
So im sure many of you may know, i write poetry. And I like to think that im pretty DAMN GOOD at it. But instead of posting some of my favorite poems on here i decided i will post my top 5 def jam poems. Tell me what you think about them.
5.
Kanye, Idk I just love da swagg he has on it, espicailly on the first one. But if your thinking to youself, yes the second one was bittersweet. I like this version better. "I make black history every day i dont need a month."
4.
This is prolly my second favorite on here but after watching the next two, you'll understand why it's number 4. Yes, im a sucka for love...
3.
Pat's Justice, something special here, alwayz nice to see it from the minorites view. Watching this makes it hard for me to judge others.
2.
This view on religion by Talib opens a lot of eyes and maybe very contrversialm but on that same token i dont think you should beileve everything ur told, and thats why claim to be more spiritual than religiuos.
on other note sarah palins dumb ass is talkin about runnin for president. if this b don't take her frozen ass back to alaska and stay there ...idk wat ima do Bossip says:
While speaking to ABC’s “This Week,” McCain was asked if Sarah Palin could count on his support if she were to run for president. Peep what old dude had to say:
“I can’t say something like that. We’ve got some great other young governors. I think you’re going to see the governors assume a greater leadership role in our Republican Party.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THESE PICTURES?!?!?! you tell me.
FINALLY I FOUND THE LONG VERSION
so this dude made the perfect woman... [above] she even has sexual sensors and shit... too much? i think so. she look so real tho!
SO just to update everyone... me and my frat pal are probably just gonna stay friends..
So they got somebody for murdering Jennifer Hudsons fam... check out this story tho..
Jennifer Hudson’s sister, Julia, celebrated turning 31 on Oct. 23 with cake and a small party at home. The next morning, police say, Julia’s estranged husband William Balfour – booted last February from the house on Chicago’s South Side where they lived with Julia’s mother and 7-year-old son – showed up and spotted a gift he believed came from another man. That jealousy is the motive that led Balfour, 27, to return to the house after Julia had left for work and shoot her mother Darnell Donerson, 57, Jennifer’s brother Jason, 29, then take Julia’s son, 7-year-old Julian King, and later kill him as well, prosecutors allege. Jennifer and other Hudson family members were “relieved and happy” after Balfour was charged Dec. 2 with three counts of first-degree murder and one count of home invasion, Chicago Police Deputy Superintendent Steve Patterson has said. Those family members assisted “every step of the way under very stressful and painful circumstances,” adds police Superintendent Jody Weis. Balfour’s attorney Joshua Kutnick says the stormy relationship between Balfour and Julia Hudson makes his client a convenient target. “We are extremely confident that once all of the evidence has come to light and has been tested by our vigorous analysis of the case, that William will be found not guilty,” Kutnick said after a judge ordered Balfour held without bail.
"It has now come to our understanding that Chris Brown's mom is worried that sexy Rihanna has been using voodoo on her son.According to her the relationship ismovingway too quickly, so she feels that Rihanna must have done something to make her son fall so deeply for her."
NOTE:THIS GOT TO BE A JOKE...MAMA YOU NEED TO STOP WORRYING BOUT YA SON. IF SHE GOT ANY CARIBBEAN BLOOD, ESPECIALLY DAT BAJAN BLOOD,SHEPROABLY PUT SUMTHIN ELSE ON HIM, BUT IT AINT VOODOO!LOL
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YES HUNNY US BAJANS PUTTIN SOMETHING ON 'EM!!!
But anywhoo... that wasnt the point of my blog... as i was looking for pictures of things that symbolize moving on too quickly... and i found that article... it was too interesting not to post. But anyways... now for my origionally intended post...
AM I MOVING ON TOO FAST??
So, there's this guy that I've had my eye on...since 9th GRADE!!! lol I mean it was jus a lil crush then, but now im gettin to know him and we're like gettin kinda close... but idk... i feel as tho im ready, but could that jus be spitefull feelings making me act out in ways such as these? Or could I really be ready to move on... I mean like I said, my relationship had beendwindling for a while... but i think it may be a lil too fast?? Plus i dont even know if this guy feels the same about me.., I dont know!!! What do yall think??
So here is december... pretty much the end of my first semester of college...
there's a lot that i think i have learned in these past 3 almost 4 months... at first i was not enjoying my experience here, but i have realized that this is a growing experience and im learning. being here, god-willingly, will make me a better person. not only academically and intellectually but in my time here i think i am maturing.. i am learning about the world that i have always watched under the protection of my parents. yea, BC isn't the world, but it's a portion of it.. and im here.. alone.. and im growing...
so in celebration of this new realization of growth and the end/ survival of my first semester of college EVERRR lol, i am going to do a little mini series about the things i have learned more about here at BC
newhoo here is the first article i guess you can say..
I came into to college thinking I was going to meet a lot of new people, that I would acquaint some, befriend others, and fall in love with one... I thought that coming to college would mean that I would have the ginormous groups of friends and we'd be super tight by the time Thanksgiving came around... Now looking back, I realize that it was silly of me to think that that would happen, when all the times before that I have enjoyed the company of a few close friend... I came here and I can say that I "acquainted" with everyone. We'd chill, eat together, go to class together, go out together.. It was fun. but it still didn't have that "college bestfriends" feeling to me.. Soon everyone was grouping off into the "friendship-groups" lol. And although I felt as is I could hang out and chill with anyone here at BC, I never felt that genuine click with anyone.. and it bothered me because I didn't understand how everyone had found their bestfriends and I still hadn't... I didn't comprehend how someone could meet another person and all of a sudden become their bestfriend.. like in just a month... for me tight friendships like that had to be developed over time.. iono... Soo.. i have had an epiphany... I'm not like everyone else... So there for I going to go about things differently.. So when people found their "BFFL" in a month.. I found my real friends in three.. and even then, nothing is ever certain.. NEWHO.. i found some people at BC that i truely care for... and ima miss then MUCHO GRANDE come winter breakk :-( and if you still haven't found those "friends" don't stress it... it will come in time.. peaceee Quote timee: "The making of friends, who are real friends, is the best token we have of a man's success in life"-Edward Everett Hale
Yea, this is my car and shit. I've been trying to make it run like any other car. I bought it for $2200. And I've spend over $1000 into it. And it still isn't worth what I spent yet. I keep trying to be optimistic about my situation, but it has not changed one bit since I bought this shit. I'm thinking about just getting a high paying ass job. Like a manager's position or something so I could get myself a new whip. Maybe a 2009 Honda Civic Si Sedan. Yea. Somethin' slight. Then I could pull up to some bun joint liiiiiike, "AY SHAWTY! Like me get a number 1 and a shake." Until then, I'ma be on my grind.
Okay. So what kind of haste could the world be in to make this...
They have a flat iron made for the CAR
<<< This is rediculos! "HUNNY HURRY UP AND TAKE THE WHEEL... IM BOUT TO BURN MY SCALP!" or that jaunt we all try to pull wen the burger's a lil too sloppy to eat with one hand and the wheel is a lil too far from the knee...
"Please Lord let this light turn yellow... so i can stop and flat iron my hair"
But i mean really, what kind of work space do we have in the car to do or hair any ways... i mean, a pony tail...nbd... a braid is pushin it..but u got it.. but FLAT IRONING? thats sooo illegal! how much of ur head can you see in the rearview mirror anyways? The mirror that pulls down in the visor is no better... what u guna lookin? That mirror on the side of the car that TELLS you "Objects in mirror are closer than they appear"... that means that the side u did in that mirror is guna look wayyyyy different than the side u did in the visor or rearview jaunt... they got u all effed up! HAHA
NEXT
So, today I went in popeyes to use the facilities... Thank Goodness I look b4 i leap (figure of speech ppl!) bcuz there was NO toilet paper! So, I go out into the dining area to get some napkins and OPPS! none of those either! So, im lookin real confused when this youngin asks me, "Aye you need sum napkins?"
DUH FOOL! U SEEN ME COME IN DIS JAUNT AND RUN STR8 TO THE BAK! U KNOW I AINT ORDER NO 5 PIECE, BUSCUIT, RED BEANS AND RICE, DRINK... none of that shish... but i maintained my composure... "Yes... PLEASE!"
Your boy gave me like 50 napkins...like i kid u not... like he wanted me to leave them in there so that wont nobody else come ask him for any! I read betwixt all lines...so, thas exactly what i did... but i really jus thought it was a shame that Popeyes, a public facility, aint got no toilet paper... that shish is a trip!
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So, everyone thinks that Angelina's lips are so HOTT aye?? I mean i do too... but i jus came to realize that they wouldnt look so HOTT on a dude...
And clearly not on the baby either... I mean dont get me wrong... This child is going to grow up and be REDICULOUSLY georgous! And she is the cutest lil thing now.. but u have to admit... she's guna have to grow in to those lips.. lol but i must say... Shiloh is a stunning chiald!
SPEAKING OF ANGELINA! NEXT!!!
YO! Did u know that Matt Damon and Brad Pitt have been best friends forever? They topped the charts today on MTV's ranking of celebrity Bromances... 1200 points... but i jus think its so adorable! They grew up together in Boston MA and have been inseprable ever since! They even got married and had (biological)kids w/in months of one another! (not that it was planned...im jus sayin) and now their kids go on playdates together and everything! I jus think thats soooo incredibly cute! I want famous friends!!!!
Well I think thats it for now... ill prolly realize some more weird shish tomorrow!
I Had to open this up with that vid... WOW! Lol... But now for ...Today's Observations! Well theyr'e actually from yesterday when I went to the mall to shop for secret santa. i saw some very disturbing fashion... this was like... an organic clothing stand... idk
is it me or are these sequins entirely to long?
how some low top converse gon be transparent and glow in the dark
SO on a different note.. the reason I wasn't able to write this early is because I went to a Sigma party...was introduced to Blue Magic and never came back... Long story... Anyway... At the party a friend of mine was there and we are madddd cool like both theatre majors and both love to dance and we have a lot of fun together.. and i mean.. i never like was initially attracted to him not because he wasn't attractive but he just wasnt my usual tall light skin green eyes, you know?.. but you know when someones personality enhances their looks? yeah.. its one of those.. and like his swag is irresistible.. yeah.... irresistible... and he has the nicest lips... pretty much.. i hooked up with him on accident. i mean it wasn't on accident because really i wanted to but... it was liquor courage lol.. and i mean.. lol.. lemme not try to make it sound any better than it was.. but like.. we like each other.. but i'm not sure about it at all because we are so effin cooool. and i just don't want that to get messed up.. i really wanna like see where it could go but... i think... i think his friendship is more important.. and i know how most things end.. right? or do i take that chance because of how good it could be... damn. here's the rock. there's the hard place. and squeezed in the middle.. smack dab in the middle like chips ahoy. don't try to act like you don't remember the commercial.
but yeah... advice is very much appreciated.. on another note Can we talk about how hot this song is?
The song starts at about 2:10 I EFFIN LOVE IT! and guess what [my mom put me on]
Me and my roomie were watchin that new show Brothers to Brutha on BET about that new boy band [Brutha] its kinda corny.. kinda good.. only one of them are cute but then i saw this
and now im in love..
time for me to study for my math exam tomorrow PEACE
Okay, so today I broke up with my boyfriend of 2years and 2 months... but i feel fine. not the fucked-up, INsecure, Emo fine, but the I feel okay fine... I mean, we been on this slippery slope...down hill of course, so I've been expecting to break up with him for a while. I was guna do it after the holidays tho b/c the holidays are sposed to be happy and stuff. Plus, his ex-broke up with him about 2 years ago...around xmas... I shoulda known it wasnt guna work out by how the relationship started. Anywhoo, moving on... Okay so, speaking of the DEVIL, his ex...yeah, she ruined him. Str8 up fucked him all over...the stupid slut. But anyway...im jus sayin this because I guess im jus now realizin that you really cant FIX a ruined man. I tried to, and it didnt work out. So now im single and ready to mingle... I thought id be heart broken... but im not. Im just a lil bitter sweet. Bitter because I did EVERYTHING a good... no FUCK good... a GREAT girl friend should do. I was there for him, in whatever he wanted to do, be it with the relationship or life wise, I supported him, I waited a year and a half for him to even ASK ME OUT!!! shit! If that doesnt say enough, what does? He was my first real relationship, my first love. We share the same habbits (dont drink, dont smoke) but not the same life goals (I will get married and have children, he wont). Im a go getter... im determined to be a lawyer and make my way to DA, I dont care how many years of schooling I need. He has settled for what career field he can go into with credits from fucking MC! I could go on forever...but i wont. I just dont understand how I gave him ALL my time, ALL my energy, ALL my love, ALL my everything... and got SHIT back in return... but it's w/e. I know that God puts people in your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime...he wass just my reason, that stretched into a season. I honstly dont think it was sposed to go as far as it did. But what more can I say...idk... HE BETTER NOT CALL ME TONIGHT EITHER! shit...im a bitter mad angry black woman now... sike jkjk he's not guna ruin it for the next man, I wont let him... I really do hope that he finds someone that he's willing to change for one day tho... IDK y it wasnt me, guess im not pretty, young, or hispanic enough (like his ex... shes like 16...she was 14 when he dated her... and he was like 18... sick shit... i shoulda known! I SHOULDA KNOWN!!!) PS-sorry if there are any type-o's... im not in the editing mood...
the names Leah, but I also respond to mellow yellow, l dubbs, high pitched donkey like pernounciations of my name, and baby if your cute. (...kidding. kinda.)
does the name sound familiar? Remember that girl in the MEN video w/ jazzo? yeah, that was me. You know that girl whose singing beside her in the "Today's Tunes" videos? yeah, that's me too. Are you gettin' Arab Money?so am i.
a little about me you ask? i'm an eighteen year old african american female. i like to eat, watch sports, shoot photography, and throw up peace signs while i scrunch my nose in facebook pictures. my music taste ranges from Alicia Keyes to rhianna&britney, to Linkin Park, Staind,& Manson to Ludacris& T. I. tand to my new favs Kid Cudi and Drake. basically...i have a pretty diverse music taste. sometime i tend to be that bitter, angry, man-hating black woman...but it's not my fault thatmen suck.
&& no matter what...
"Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession"
Friday
What SHE Gotta Do Wit Me?!?! I am usually completely against infidelity. I mean I still am. But for the first time in my life I'm seein it from the perspective of the other woman. DunnDunn Dunn!
"here we go yo, here we go yo, so what's, so what's the scenario"
Say so and so just found out that the dude she's been seeing [on campus] actually has a long term girlfriend [back home]. What attitude should so and so have? Well usually I'd say so and so should stop talking to him. I mean she wouldn't want to be in the dudes girlfriend right. Treat others how you wanna be treated. Golden rule right? But in actuality, so and so did nothing wrong. He lied and said he didn't have s girlfriend. Should finding out that he was lying change her behavior? I mean he lied for a reason. WhatSHEgotta do wit so and so?
Girls are just as bad as guys these days. Say you were the 'girlfriend back home'.. you can't be mad at so and so because so and so is just doing what you'd do in that position [since the dude lied]. Girls are ruthless anyway. It's true.
But at the end of the day its on the nigha. Girls get mad at girls over this shit... but he's playing youBOTH!
Botha y'all need to drop his ass like hot... hot...
damn.. i can't think of a good simile..
all i know is I MUST BE BUTTA CUZ I'M ON A ROLL!!!
BUT THE ONES WHO NEED TO HEAR ARE THE ONES WHO DONT LISTEN
Well whats good people, I am Sam Ofori aka Blackstar. Then name is a symbol from my country of GHANA, in West Africa. Well just so yall know i am all about my Swagg. Some may call me MR. SWAGGER. I love to write, ecspically POETRY. But you'll probably be seeing some of that on here. The little expert up there was from one of my poems. Im ALWAYZ RIGHT, so that usually means UR WRONG. "Music shoots to the soul is so potent so its much more addictive than crack is" thats a quote by my man Black Ice, which leads me to the fact the I love music. I listen to all types u name a song i prolly know it. Lauryn Hill aka L-Boogy is my favorite singer, rapper, you name it she's my favorite. John Legend is my favorite male singer. MAROON 5 IS THE TRUTH, SONGS ABOUT JANE IS MY SECOND FAVORITE ALBUM EVER. I'm very opinionated, but open minded at the same time. I love a good conversation. I also play piano, drums, i sing, and dance. I am a exteremly RELIGIOUS person, I try and put God first in everything I do. KOBE BRYANT is the FUCKING MAN. I played high school basketball at PAINT BRANCH HIGH SCHOOL. I am now a Sophmore at MORGAN STATE. I love my family, I love my freinds, and I love my brova's aka DA FAM. I can prolly go on this for hours, but imma cut it short, let da games BEGIN.
