Heartless

Yao, it's Khyote hopping into this cockpit for a couple minutes. I have some shit to get off my chest... More specifically, out my brain.

I've just gotten out of a relationship. Reason primarily being miscommunication. (it that not a word?) And at the end of it, I couldn't say, ask, anything to her. She'd get to say whatever she had to then hang up. This was so unfair. The last conversation we had together started with her lying saying I've been disrespectful. I ask how, and she responds with an instances that happened a week ago. She said I dissed her by blaming her for losing a game and calling her name. I admitted to blaming her for losing the game, but I did not call her names. So I ask, what names did I call you. She responds, "You just blamed me for losing and called me names." I ask her again, and she rephrases what she just said. I asks, why are you lying. She asks, why would I be lying on you. I get completely angry after that. Long story short, she didn't want to talk to me EVER again.

Now I'm left knowing my diginty put me in this situation. I'm left knowing my diginty helped me lose a person who's changed my WHOLE life. But then again, she acts as if she's done nothing wrong EVER. Idk, I just feel so angry, depressed, etc. All the bad shit. I am at fault for all this happening. And she's making everyone believe I'm some fucked up bipolar guy. I don't have anyone to talk to or anything. It's like I lost a piece of myself...